warmer days ahead

To those concerned, I have been feeling a lot better since my last post. I decided to leave a space heater on in the room at the front of my house, with a wide, uncurtained window facing the street. This past weekend I woke up to sun shine, made some coffee, and read for an hour. Afterward I cleaned my apartment (vacuumed and all) and watched Harold And Maude with Julie. It was a perfect day of setting myself a simple to-do list and feeling really accomplished. That night, Julie, Laura and I had a "potluck". I made a teriyaki vegetable stirfry, Julie made a quiche, and Laura made a dish of baked rice and squash with almonds and feta cheese; it made for an amazing dinner. Sunday I went to a Yin yoga class with Cori. The concept of Yin yoga is holding poses for a lengthy amount of time (about five minutes.) When doing this, you attempt to relax your body into stillness and prevent yourself from making the kinds of constant adjustements that I am all too prone to doing. The whole idea of meditation through stasis is fascinating to me, and it is a practice I would like to continue. The rest of my weekend I spent relaxing and watching movies.

This week has been slow again. Tanya called in sick on Monday, and Jerome told me that he was going to be leaving RingSide and offered to impart some of his knowledge to me. On Tuesday I talked with Cody about my goals and aspirations for the future, and it made me feel optimistic. All in all, it coincided wonderfully with my learning how to realax for a weekend and feeling more confident in myself. I am even learning to have a better self-image... but I feel that it will have to come last.

This Saturday is my dad's birthday, and I am meeting my parents for lunch Saturday at Benihana. We're then going to my aunt's so I can use their TurboTax software. After that, I'll be looking forward to another sunny Sunday relaxing and composing my monthly mix CD for March.